By Aditi Arvind
I wish to erase the distance between us
Forgetting that distance is swallowed by Your grace
I long to discern
The energies beneficent and maleficent
But fail to feel the pulse of the energizer
I yearn to hear the sacred sound of Your cosmic dance
But stifle my own outpouring of it.
To stay in the past and shun the present
To kill a moment to birth another
Just to let it pass to and await the other
Is it not the greatest crime of all?
I long to see You, or what I expect you to be
Yet disregard your presence dressed in stone
I want to dissolve, dissolve in you
And yet can't accept the you in me
Thousand faults I am able to find in this perfection that you call life.
Tears sting my eyes, I am unable to breathe
And the next moment something else distracts me
Knowing this to be the depth of my devotion
Why do You expect me to search for salvation?
I know not where I must go
I know not how to get there
I know not how to ask for directions or follow them if you tell me.
I forget that I don't know.
And I forget that you do know.
I flail, I flounder , I suffer, I suffer.
Don't let a moment more pass.
Hundreds have passed with this feeling of restlessness.
Thousands in reckless enjoyment.
Just one in the longing for You.
And yet that one moment stays forever.
I wait here. Not knowing how long it will take for me to reach You
Or if I will ever reach You
The only thing I know is that You promised me.
You promised me You and I won't go until You come.