By Sonali Goyari
I fell off
Not suddenly
But intentionally
I got embroiled
But don't know who implicated
It was deep and dark
I was afraid and trembled
Afraid of getting judged
And trembling lowered my voice
Was crying in dark for help all alone
But I was so numb
Words remained inside
Like it is buried in a coffin
I could see everything
Everything that could take me out of that cryptic place
Still everything was gloomy
I felt like my soul is in the black hole
I got cold feet
Walking through that darkness
Every new day seem to be a healing day
But later on it's just a delusion
An amount of courage is racked up
But everything is crumbled
Crumbled by beloved one
Saying
Idle and making excuses
He lost his listening capacity
Or
He never had that capacity
Or
My words fell short
He withdrew his hand
I fell deeper
In that bottomless depth
Till now I am
Climbing
Climbing
Climbing
I fall down in between
But again i climb up
Not alone
But with
I, Me & Myself