By Neha Sharma
It's confusing, perplexing, distressing, hurting
To process what around is happening
You want to comfort your loved one in pain
But all your efforts are futile and in vain
You want them to stay forever but also their suffering to end
You want them to go peacefully but also not them to be sent
Looking at her face endlessly to reserve every detail
Every wrinkle, lines, moles, folds of her skin with lifetime of tales
I stare, observe, capture her face, I might not get to see her again
But I look up, pray to God to ease her pain
I was born in her arms, but she died in mine
The reality hasn't sunk in yet, I appear to be but I am not fine
The moment her soul left has left a mark on my soul
The body that fed us infinite warmth is now turning cold
I caress her face while everyone tells me to cease
I still run my fingers over her face covered in eternal peace
I didn't want to stop, I wanted to feel her
This was my last chance, the last to embrace her
It felt as if she's going to open her eyes and speak
I would often touch her heart to feel a heartbeat
But nothing moved, she turned colder and colder
I wanted to keep her warm and move more closer
You shouldn't sit close to her, they all said
She's gone, she's not alive, she cannot feel you, she's dead
No she's not, don't say that, leave us alone
Stop stopping us from loving her one last time, let us process, let us mourn
And then everyone took over, and I got lost around the crowd
Trying to catch her last glimpse I wanted to scream, howl and shout
I ran after her as they took her on her final journey
And I couldn't fathom the fact that from here there won't be any returning
Crying to catch her glimpse one last time, dreading the fact that it's the last
With the one that was our roof, will now be in the past
I don't know when it'll be a goodbye from me
In this moment, I don't want any parting feel
I don't want you to go yet, I don't want to let go of your hand
I don't want to come to terms with reality, I don't want to understand
Please come and comfort me like you always did
Please let me lean on, hold on, let me near you sit
Let me once more hear you bless me with your long long verse
Stay a little more, and not yet disperse