By Priyanka Shah
I used to love talking about incidents that hurt me or people I felt betrayed by. And I would talk… and talk… and talk about it. This was my way of making sense of what happened.
Why did I need to talk about it so many times?
I recently realized—it was the resistance to accepting the truth within those situations.
I talked to validate my denial. Until my denial was slowly chipped away, I kept talking.
So I decided to make a change—to accept that I was the priority.
Even if people didn’t make me their priority, I still had to make myself one.
Chit chit chat.
Chat chat chit.
Repeat.
Chit chit chat.
Chat chat chit.
Repetition to help me process
The wayward dots and crosses.
Over and over to understand
Why they stood on that stand.
Chit chit chat.
Repeat.
Chat chat chit.
I screamed and sorrowed,
Histories now hollowed.
Looking for the close and near,
Consumed by my deepest fear.
Chit chit chat.
I called my chatter coping methodology,
But ’twas only inane philosophy—
Conversation with no finality,
Only self-destructive calamity.
Chit chit.
In quiet contemplation,
Hard-hacked manipulation,
I saw the faces
Of betraying phases.
Silence.
No more resistance
To truth so persistent.
Pedestals are for thyself,
Not memories from a shelf.
Beautifully expressed
The poem’s layered meanings are beautifully crafted and left me with so much to think about.
Beautifully written!
Nice to see the poet in you!
Poetic introspection of admission and remediation of self!
Can resonate! Loved it
Beautifully written!
The light of your talent shines so brightly it illuminates the whole world.
Very well expressed poem of self reflection ! Enjoyed reading! Keep writing and keep sharing!
Love how raw and rhythmic the piece is, especially the clever onomatopoeia “chit chit chat”.
Looking forward to reading more from you.
Simple words with lots of meaning
This was beautifully written! Thanks for sharing Priyanka :)
well expressed. keep it up
Very well expressed
It is comforting to see this feeling put into words.
Such a raw and powerful piece, felt every word!
Simple yet beautifuly written!
Very well emoted
Thank you for expressing it so beautifully. Normalising of sharing your pains and growing along is a need of an hour!