By Aleena Kashif
Two lies and no truth
Had me confused
Satin skies and broken roofs
Tell me that you didn't twist the rules
Dialectical storms, pretty thorns
With silhouettes painted in blue
I'll admit I didn't see it coming
And I could never put you off the hook
I put my heart through phases
Supressed it, Denied it, Destructed it
Thought I was doing the right thing
Doesn't forgiveness make you a better human?
Oblivion, sobering, perceieved, heartbroken
The house turned into ashes with words unspoken
Rust between the beweildered routes I spent my days inquiring your moods
But how much can you fit in a human being?
Aren't they allowed to live and breathe?
What were the possibilities?
Of the faded past of you and me?
I thought for days, cried for nights
Half of my life, I called you the light
Is that why you took all of mine?
But this was the time when i picked my side.
I killed my thoughts
I taped my tears
It is said that the same routines can't be changed for years
So I turned the tables
And watched it dissapear.
They say
Old habits die screaming
So I caged them up
No ounce of light beaming
The windows?
I flamed them up
I let the silence fill the room
As I left without any traces of you
I watched the iron bars close in
As my mind erased all the pieces stored deep within
I did slip away
I did think if this was right
After all you were a habit for all my life
But forgiveness is not easy after a million times
They say
Old memories die screaming
Especially with people you never thought could be so decieving
Devastated, regret, rage, astray
I will pretend it was only a matter of a day
To get you out of my system
I'll walk like we never saw the light of day
Forgiveness, fearless, in the end I was okay.
Yes I did see you passing my way
And I only passed a smile
Cause from the outside
My plan was to kill you by being kind.