By Nyra Mabé Moon
I look outside
I see bricks, sand, bushes, a cycle,
Some dog dirt (shit) and several broken fallen leaves
I reminisce
You were the snake
Hiss
I dismiss
This court of abyss
Bricks
You threw at me
And I picked
Some bruised me
Some got tricked
I constrict the cries when they hit me
They hit me like the suitcase full of clothes
I was lying on the ground
My legs on the stairs
You were above me
I was below you
Weeping
Reaping
Creaking and shrieking
You were about to smash my face with that suitcase
That suitcase is the brick
These bricks are the suitcase
I don’t like to see these bricks!
Sand
I wish you held my hand
Instead of my neck
Instead of my face
Instead of my body
Entangled me and blew me away
Just like the grains of sand that flow and fly and flow and fly
You released my neck and held it tight and released my neck and held it tight
I felt like sand
My body left like sand
My neck, my breath
Felt like sand
Falling apart
Like a child trying to hold it in her hands
Now as I walk and air blooms
And some sand touches my face
I don’t like it
It makes me breathless
Bushes
There’s nothing to hate about bushes but
I remember the fake flowers you got me after entangling me the wrong way
They were roses
Froze
Frozen roses
Just like putting ice on a burn
But it still did hurt
Those flowers were fake
Just like the promises you made
Those thorny roses were red
Just like my cold boiling blood
Cycle
We were on a trip
Riding bikes and I was so happy
I left both handles
And rode it
Balanced it
But you again disrupted my joy
Maybe out of concern
And asked me to never ride the bike like that
Now I always ride my bike like that
Shit
I saw some dog dirt
But I remembered a lot of girth
You were dirt (shit)
Your heart full of girth (shit)
The words you said hit
Bit me in the tongue when I speak
You threw me in a pit
And baby
Baby
That pit was full of shit
Black yellow green
Chose any color!
But not white pink or lean
Cuz that’s the color of my heart
Tension, convection
Please don’t you dare mention!
Broken fallen leaves
Just like the petals I gave you
And got nothing in return
You left me broken
Words unspoken
You gave me a token to hell
And forgot to guide my way back home
I’m am that fallen Angel
My wings broken
Painful
I was innocent
You made me sinful
I was whole
You broke me
I was honest
You made me a liar
Now I look outside
And see this
Not bricks
Not sand
Not bushes
Not a cycle
Not shit
Not broken fallen leaves
But a new version of me
And I (don’t) love (like) it
Woahh