A Bitter Love

By Karishma Ganwani

Amid crashing waves and chaotic winds,
My heart's ocean was finding a shore to rest upon.
Then you came like a rescue boat, mended my wounds and healed my scars.
My little mermaid heart started feeling the tenderness in your touch.
Maybe it was just the beginning of what people call 'love'.
You adorned my head with a crown and built me sand-castles.
Guess it was pretty sure, all my life I'd been waiting for something like this to happen.
But soon the waves turned violent and winds became overpowering.
The endless talks you once loved, now just became badgering.
I thought it's just a phase and eventually it'll be fine,
Unaware of the fact that losing love occurs before you show the signs
Never knew that i invited a storm, and now I drown in the deep deep sea.
The long arguments and incomplete love felt like greeting an enemy.
Crying and screaming,
I begun to see the fading mirage of your so called feelings.
I became numb and quiet, and it didn't bother you, but that's alright.
Coz, now I was trapped in the fishing net surrounded by my feelings,
And it hurts so much to learn that there's no escape to my misery.
I'm not sure what pushed me into this catastrophe
The lack of efforts or just the ephemeral nature of your love.
I don't really know what brings more pain, being with you or knowing that we'll never be the same again.
And it hurts more than a betrayal
Coz I can never find a reason to hate ya!
Now, sitting by the shoreline alone and quiet,
Gazing at the sky on a starry night
I still wonder whether any of the things you said were true and wish I could go back in time and stop myself from loving you.