Lately, I Have Been Happy – Delhi Poetry Slam

Lately, I Have Been Happy

By Sayantani Chakravarty

Lately, I have been happy

Which is an embarrassment,

Because I have a reputation to upkeep,

I am deep.

And thoughtful,

And poignant

And melancholic...

And I tell it like it is,

I talk about rising from the ashes,

And battling my demons...

But how am I supposed to speak wisdom,

If I am this happy.

My mind is just fluff,

You have ruined me.

I can no longer remember how to access dark, feel dark,

Spruce up my language,

Think amiss, think complicated,

Now my mind just speaks simple and easy...

And I shall have you know I don’t do cheesy,

But you have me comparing you to the sunshine and the moonshine,

And everything pretty and intoxicating,

And ugh! I am such a simp, it disgusts me.

You make me feel like the world is beautiful place to be,

And I watch the news, I know it isn’t.

And I know I am no batman,

But you make me want to put on a cape and try.

So make no mistake, you my dear are lethal...

And this is ridiculous,

But everytime you smile, you knock me off a few IQ points,

With every serotonin surge,

I smile giddy, I laugh silly.

I am trying hard not to look thirteen.

Lately, I have been happy

Which is magic,

Oh! But I had a reputation to upkeep

And it turns out, I can be deep,

And thoughtful,

And happy

And at peace,

And ugh! mushy.... how mushy,

But I can tell you like it is,

I have risen from the ashes,

I have battled my demons,

And waited so long for you to come find me.


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