By Reborn From Ashes
After losing people and finding none by my side,
I started thinking about myself.
But,I wish I had looked myself as the guide.
But NO, I started neglecting myself, torturing myself.
I saw the other me in the mirror with messy hair,
I somewhere believed the 'me' in the mirror is not fair.
I hated myself, I believed people, when they said, " I am wrong".
I did not talk to any person for 8 months long.
One fair day, when I was little sane to reply a guy,
I replied his three days ago text with a 'hie'.
I knew him, he knew me, since we were five.
But now, after reading me, he says ,' you should live a merry life'.
Little he knew, how hard I have made my life to live,
Little he knew, that I am insane enough not to outlive.
He still thinks he can make me smile.
He still makes me feel I am not dumb.
He made me a part of his daily life style.
And here I am standing numb?
He's the person I got after 1 year,
Here I stand again with the fear,
With the fear of losing him.
With the fear of living a life so dim.
I have the fear to show him my soul.
I hardly know if he will like a heart as black as coal.
My greatest fear is that eventually he will see me the way I see myself.
My greatest fear is that eventually he will have to leave my side for himself.