is this that love?

You see i am the kind of joke which comes with the awkward silence and she is that unsure pity laugh that comes after 

So we fit in together

Maybe not the right way 

But the way which tells me 

Its okay to not fit in

so, often i ask myself is this that love?

that love which gives you another life 

and killls you even when you are still alive.

is this that love which you wrote all those poems for ?