By Ruta Sawant
Dreams don't die pretty deaths
they burn in a self-loathing so intense
that you can feel it spark off
from the edge of your fingertips , like milk
left simmering on the stove for far too long
until it spills over into a strange and
sour smelling curdle , allow it enough
time to cool and it settles in a ball
of hate in the pit of your stomach, I wish
this uneasy anxiety, this restless feeling
of castastrophy that is just waiting
for you to open your doors would find
itself a new address, I am tired of it
returning right back here when the sky
darkens , each time I ask of it to pack
its bags and leave .They say grief
progresses in five stages , denial , anger
bargaining, depression, acceptance ,
but my grief refuses to slip smoothly
from one stage to another , instead it
is a shape shifter , a dementor this day ,
almost ready to accept the Blue and
move on the next , it is a stubborn child ,
a parasite , whose survival depends
upon sucking me dry.
To be completely honest I wish this could've been a happy poem, a we-will-get-through-this
-Sad-and-be-alright poem , a we-are-going
to-be-fine the world is-not-crashing-and-
collapsing poem , a poem where I could've
told you with complete assurance and
maybe a mild amount of satisfaction
that although your grief may seem like
the grave of a newborn child , but hey ,
flowers bloom in graveyards too ,
but I am sorry ,
I do not know
I do not know
my grief is a shape shifter
too many questions and no correct answers
or too many answers and no correct questions ,
my grief is a painting set aflame
I leave it undone the way I leave everything else
sometimes , in the hope , that it will resolve
itself , sometimes , in the hope , that
when I wake up tommorow ,
I will find better ways
to do it all over again.
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This poem won in Instagram Weekly Contest held by @delhipoetryslam on the theme 'Trauma'
I like the style of expressing poem with vivid emotions.
Amazing!
Deep thoughts
Absolutely beautiful
This is so profound and beautiful :’)