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Addiction

Lehar Kakkar

So I have this habit....
Of shooting and taking pills...
Several times a day....
I have a habit...
Of unnecessary shouting and arguing....
With several persons in a day....
I have a habit..
Of letting my blood flow...
Out of my veins....
I have a habit...
Of hiding emotions...
And yelling at others if they figure it out...
I have a habit...
Of smoking drinking and watching porn...
Like most of you may have....
We know we have habits....
But do we know...
Which of them is an addiction...
People say when you can't stop yourself
From doing something harmless it's a habit...
But when you can't stop yourself
From doing something harmful it's an addiction...
But the urge defines it...
Simply illogical to avoid anything...
When your freedom is what you want as prescription...
As when you tell them about your addiction...
They will again prescribe you pills...
Which will again become a habit...
But will cause some pain...
So why to avoid them and call them addiction...
Why not call them a habit...
And live happily with them...
Because there is that never ending craving...
Once you start any of these...
And no counselling or medicine can help with these...
They say come to us or visit a church...
We will help you to deal with it....
In which they tell not to do anything..
Even when you want...
But can you deal with the hunger...
When you are sitting in KFC...
So why not get high...
And forget all the tensions...
Oh wait...
I forgot about those luxury possessions...
Those shoes..
That car and that makeup....
Such power and a cruise...
More control and more money....
Being successful is also an addiction....
Maybe at some point we have all been addict....
So why not define it as a bondage...
To be dependant on something...
That make us feel alive....
Yes that's the reason..
I shoot and take pills...
To avoid confusion and stay high...
To stay happy and stay wise...
Yes that's the reason...
I avoid people...
Or start a fight...
Or bleed...
Yes it is just because I want to feel alive....


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